Relationships , in the end , only cause heartache which turns to tears which turns to lies which turns to drama which turns to hate. So lets just stay single have an awesome time with mates and have no fucken worries.

o We laughed until we had to cry, we loved right down to our last goodbye, but over the years we'll smile and recall for just one moment we had it all.

Sometimes you just look at someone and think... should I love them for who they were, hate them for who they’ve become or feel sorry for them because they had to change

o Just because I’m the one that ended it doesn’t mean anything could’ve changed. Don’t go acting like it’s my fault, you are not the victim, you and I know both know to this day when I left you were already walking away

its over.

Its over and i think im okay with it. Sure it hurts and all but its for the best. When we are older i have this funny feeling we may find each other again, even my best friend reckons that. I thinks its kinda cute, obvs not gona hold onto it. If it happens it happens, if doesnt it doesnt! I love him still but he has changed and he needs time to be a boy and do his own thing, as do i. I need to do my own thing for a bit and find myself again....i guess i got lost in him a bit.

I will love you always. Dont you ever forget it.

I don't miss him, I miss who I thought he was.

love isnt enough anymore.

I don't know what to do.
This isn't right.

i dont want this to fall apart already? theres nothing wrong?

Dont hold your breath

Well we were fine... and i think we still are? But you are talking about people breaking up and then i asked you are you hinting we are? and you ignored the questions after me asking 5 times and you still havent answered :( not again? i mean come on! you wanted me back so bad after telling me about what your brother and his partner said. If you end this because your mates are and because its "break up season" then you are are a sheep and not the person that i know. You are independent and unique so following what other are doing wouldnt make sense.

WTF SOMEONE HELP

2009.

2009's ball photo.

Ready for 2010's and fresh start :)

finally accepting change and fucking happy about it.

You always seem to be right. Heres hope your right again,

I know you will be ;)

:):):):):):):):):):):):) YAY :):):):):):):):):):):)

Being with you now.

So back together with him. Its good... i think? Its very different this time around but i guess thats a good thing because we are trying to remove the parts that ruined us last time. For example not texting all the time and not seeing each other continuously. Its healthier this way. When we are together we have a way better time because we value time we have together. We did fight and argue alot when we started being together again simply because i didnt understand why is wasnt the same as it use to be.... i get it now :) We have the ball together this Saturday night and then your ball a month or so later. Hope we have the best night! im sure we will, we always do.

Xx

i love you to bits.

?

......

......

.......

........

.........

...........

I dont Know.

all about you.

People say alot of bad shit about you to me. Say how you treat me badly and that you talk crap about me at school. Yet i always defend you whether i look like a dick or not, why? because i love you believe it or not! You think i do nothing but shit stir and cause drama yet i tell everyone nothing but the best about you whenever you come up in conversation. Maybe one day you will listen to your parents and brother and other guys who think you are lucky to have me and would be stupid to let me go. You will learn when im gone and by the way you are treating me now kind of shows me you dont want me. So behold the day im gone and its too late. If you get rid of me i am gone and gone forever. No more waiting around because if you can hurt me then your not worth keeping. As much as that hurts to say its true. I dont need the person i love to hurt me.

Wonder whats going to happen now baby? Still gona get mad? start a fight? accuse me of something? Shut up and love me? Treat me like your girlfriend? Your decision mate just remember once im gone i aint coming back. Love you.

Love is confusing and hurtful.Dont you wish it was easy and fun like it was at the beginning?

:'(

This is so stupid. You create drama yourself. We were joking around then u turn around and tell me to get over myself and call me bro? WTF is wrong with you! Why do you get so snappy so quickly. I always say sorry to avoid a fight and then you throw it back in my face or dont reply. Can you please sort it? Im being so nice and dont know what i am doing so wrong.

I dont like being one half of the equation :(

Common Denominator lyrics

It fills the air,
And I fall in love with you,
all over again
Ohhh

Your the light that faced the sun,
In my world,
Id face a thousand years of pain
For you ,

Out of all the things in life
that I could fear;Uh
The only thing that would hurt me,
Is if your weren't here,
Woah

I don't wanna go back
To being just one half of the equation
You understand what I'm say'n?

without you I am lost
Can't face this focus at heart
Between me and love
You're the Common Denominator.

Oh,Oh,Ohh,Oh
You're the Common Denominator.
Oh,Yeah,Woah

Out of all the things in life
that I could fear;Yeah
The only thing that would hurt me,
Is if your weren't here,
Woah

I don't wanna go back
To being just one half of the equation
You understand what I'm say'n?

without you I am lost
Can't face this focus at heart
Between me and love
You're the Common Denominator.

You,Woah,Oh woah,
You're the Common Denominator.
Oh,Yeah,Woah

I dont' wanna go back,
Half of the equation, Woah Woah, Yeah
You're the Common Denominator.
Oh,Yeah,Woah

Just a fraction of your love
Fills the air

And I fall in love with you
All over again.

Us.

Our relationship before was amazing, so in love and always having fun. We talked all the time. We would text each other when we woke up almost until we went to sleep. This time around it feels different. You never text me. I always text you first and when i get a reply its one worded or dead ended. I always feel like a burden when im texting you. Feel so unwanted. When i look over at you, your always texting someone, why cant that someone ever be me? You are the one who is making this relationship different. It could be how it use to be? Its almost like you dont want it? I feel like you only want me so that no one else can have me. Thats not how it should work at all so what are you doing? Please tell me or give me some indication because i dont like this. When we are together its AWESOME when we arent together its like we dont go out. I just dont hear from you? Yet you text other girls. It scares me how it never seems to cross your mind to text me because you never make any effort. Why should i be the one who has to text you first? It doesnt make sense. If you dont want to be with me then please tell me because ill go. I just hope you know that if you let me go this time i wont be coming back. No more waiting around for you because that type of shit has put to much emotional strain on me.

Sometimes i wonder why i write this stuff because i know he will never see it. Maybe i should man up and say it to him. Maybe i should just keep my mouth shut to avoid argument. If nothing changes soon something will be said. Last time around we were amazing, best friends. But we had our affectionate side too. It was such an amazing time. I want it to go back to how we use to be. Maybe thats too much to ask. I didnt think it was considering he was the one who wanted this.

I Love You.

Im sick and it sucks. I think me and him are together again... i dont know? We are hanging out on friday which will be good. Will it work this time? I think it will just because we know whats its like to be apart and how badly it hurts to see each other with other people. Not the nicest feeling in the world at all.

I am happy hope you are to baby!

I am flying on cloud nine :)

gvn dfmb gjhny

Fuck you. All those stupid boys may have ruined me and him completly. I love him to bits and they are stirring shit so they can have there fun with me. I am NOT going out again because this is too far. I love him more than anything and will do anything to not loose him again. FUCK you assholes.

I have a funny feeling that i am never going to stop loving you.

can do what i want but i kinda dont wana

I love blogging.It makes my day! i love looking back at how i was feeling at a particular time.

How am i still thinking this after what you have done to me annoys me.

Special friend

I have this friend who i have only become close with this year. She has helped me so much throughout my break up without even knowing it. I was upset yesterday so after school she randomly came around to my house and gave be two blocks of chocolate and a big bag of pick and mix lollies. She really made my day :) so today i returned the favor. I knew her and her friends were having trouble so i when to the florist this morning an brought her a bright yellow sun flower wrapped in bright coloured paper! nothing is better than bright flowers on a dark winters day. She is such an amazing person and i feel so lucky to have her in my life. YOUR THE BEST :) xo

It's 11.06pm on tuesday night. Laying in bed chatting with Emma on the phone. She is being so helpful. I don't know what to do with this situation between me and him. It's hard. Like I text him before and he didn't reply. That normally wouldn't annoy me it's just the fact that what I wrote was totally fair and nice. I didn't need to be nice to you under the circumstances but I didn't want to argue with you because it causes me too much pain. And now I'm laying here wondering why u didn't reply? Arrrggghhhhh. I need some answers. God? Can u help? Give me some sort if sign? A message? because I'm soooo confused and the stupid part of this shit is i still love him even though he has been nasty and inconsiderate. Somebody help me and give some guidance. I seriously make it on my own. As weak as that sounds I truly can't.

Sometimes i wonder why things happen the way they do.
Why god would ever want to hurt and bring people so much pain,
i know that everythings supposed to happen for a reason but sometimes i just dont get it. . .