Hold my hand?

Okay. So a boy held my hand the other day and i looked down and just stared. So many things were running through my head. I sat there and thought about how wrong it was. Not the fact that he was holding my hand but the fact that he almost just 'wasn't doing it right'.

• His hand didn't fit right.
• His hands were too small.
• His fingernails were too neat and tidy.
• His hand were petite and delicate like a little girls.
• His hands didnt make me feel safe and secure like it should?
• His hands weren't the ones i was use to.

All this over a boy holding my hand?

Real or fake? Forever or just for now?

I fooled myself thinking that I was ever good enough, but I guess I'm just a sucker for a good liar.

this ain't a love song, this is goodbye.

fuck your ex. fuck anyone you thought caredabout you. fuck missing people. fuckinsomnia. i'm so done, fuck everything. fuckthe way you made me feel.
do what you want.

what if this time, i don't say hi first?

what if this time, i don't txt you back?

what if this time, i leave you wondering?

yeah what if this time, you're the one left feeling completely fucked over.

thank-you.

i don't know what for.

but thank-you.

thank-you for strengthening me.

im just not interested in your lies anymore

IM DONE.

I'm currently making some changes in my life. If you don't hear from me, you're one of them.

I have never felt this upset and hurt in a very long time.

He said to me he wanted to prove himself and blah blah. He never made any effort instead stayed at another girls house.

I am almost in tears and i dont know why?

His mum was telling me how quite he is and unhappy he is without me. You wouldnt think so?

The way he has/is acting is weird.

I have a lump in my throat and my eyes are blinking away the tears. Why am i hurting so much?

i actually have no idea. I want to see him tonight and sit down and tell him to sort his shit out once and for all. He either wants me in his life and is going to prove himself or im out and fully gone.

Please dont interrupt me when i am trying to ignore you.

Best friend.

Theres nothing better than knowing you have a best friend. Whos is always there. Tells you everything. keeps you informed. Is willing to tell you the truth no matter how much it hurts.

I love my best friend more than anything in the world :)

See you at dance tonight sister!

LIVE,LOVE,DANCE!

- T